A Right Perspective

Ever since the beginning of last year I've been on the hunt for a church to connect with but somehow or another non of the ones I've visited seemed to settle well. You might say at times I wished that I didn't think so deeply and so thoroughly whether doctrine or manner of church structure was in alignment with the Bible. Yeah, I was most troubled at times because I couldn't understand and still don't to this day how scripture could be interpreted in such a fashion or people be in positions of leadership when it was clearer than day written in the Book the qualifications for such a position. ... As I said, sometimes I wish I didn't go into lengths of thinking about things. ...but if God went into lengths to write about it shouldn't it be of importance for us to follow? 'Course unless we think ourselves above then we have nothing to worry about! Free interpretation and whims are at our disposal!

So having gone to one church after another, I was once again succumbing to the idea that there wasn't one that I would be able to connect with. But why? Was I making or taking too hard a fast rule as to what God wanted for me? It behooves me to think that as time continues to laps it is becoming harder and more difficult locating a church which is sound in doctrine and in practice. But at the same time I was also seeing the vital need to have fellowship with other Believers and not become reclusive to the rest of the world. Intermingling with a group not only is challenging to one but also provides accountability...which I desperately saw a need for.

It's been a couple months now, but after a friend of mine invited me to a small Prayer/Worship group, it has been amazing to see God's hand move in the midst of them. The Refuge OKC has been a tremendous blessing! If you are serious about your relationship with Christ and yearn to become a genuine disciple then you should visit.

One of the members asked if they could pray for me. 'Sure!' I mean, who doesn't need prayer, right? I need all I can get! First, let me back up a little. There was another prayer group I'd attended awhile back, so between this one and the former one I'd noticed the same pattern. Their prayers aren't ones beseeching good but rather pronouncing as if it was already given. More along the lines of praying a blessing. Each of these prayers have been really meaningful. 


Anyways, a few key words which struck a note in my heart were: devotion, honeybee, jewel (as in a necklace), precious treasure, the definition of my name, and attract others to Christ. Needless to say, those are not words I'd describe myself as. No, far be it from me! But why can I not accept the way Christ sees me? Why do I fight it as if it were a monster ready to swallow me up?


God is sure not to leave us to fend for ourselves... No, no siree! Each time I return I am amazed as to how much God has and desires to share with His Beloved. Yes, I am His Beloved.  =) That came to me not long ago. I am not a dirty scum of the earth but a bride. Not an after thought but specifically chosen by my Lover. It is amazing when you ask God Himself what He thinks of you versus going off what people depict you as or simply believing subconsciously as it be (and I do believe we do a great deal of believing subconsciously than we realize) what others say you are. He has a totally different perspective of you. After all, Whos' child are you? Gods'!  Run to Him as your defender. Run to Him as the one who will stand up for you. You are not of this world but have been chosen out of this world. If you were of this world the world would love you but because you aren't it hates you. (paraphrased) Yet are we not left alone. May you open your hand of whatever hurts and heartaches you've clenched your fists around and allow Christ to take them from you. May you open your heart to the healing He so desperately desire to give you in exchange for the past. Recall,

“Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh. 

Is there anything too hard for Me?"