Remind Me Again

The day long over, he is left with his own thoughts running and rerunning while sitting on the edge of his bed. "How could you?!" From the outside you'd think he had a perfect life. Except for the one thing which weighted heavily on his heart. Why must there be this monstrous set back?

Both the winter and spring months had been fruitful and maturity seemed as wings of birds ascending to unknown heights. A friendship forms only to be disillusioned. "Why!" the heart cries.

Grasping violently with outstretched arms for someone to engage with...only in vain. The lack of friends climaxed leaving an emptiness and heartache. With a recent relationship called off life feels stagnant.

"Why" I ask. What are the 'blessings' for these seasons, I ponder.

To be honest with you, I am the person in each of these circumstances. I wish that I could share victorious seasons in each leaf turned. But no, I've questioned God, demanded answers and even cried bitterly.

However, there have been a few times in which stepping back and asking God to open my eyes to view life from His frame of reference has blessed me. During one such time, in which I was at my lowest of strength, non other but God himself must have posed a thought. "What IF someone else who didn't know Me had experienced some of the very same things you've gone through? How would they cope with it?" That got my attention. "Okay, Lord, I get the point." How do unbelievers go through life without Jesus?!? I was dumbfounded. To question and doubt who God is...do I really know who He is? To have no hope or reason for living was far beyond me. But I DO have a Reason and Purpose for living and chose not to allow my circumstances to determine my outlook of God.

Praising Jesus in and through each trial hasn't been the easiest even though I wanted to. That is when I realized that in whatever allotment I find myself, God still can be found. That is, He became more real to me than ever. He's right there; right beside me.

The song Just to be With You by One Sonic Society has spoken to me so many times. It is my heart of hearts desire and prayer. All I need is just to bask in His presence. To be so consumed with Him that not even a single thing in this life would detour me from sweet worship of my Jesus.

As I sit back and reminisce over the last year, I can honestly say, blessed be the name of the Lord! I see now that, had He not given out of His grace and mercy I could not be the person I am today without the hardships. A few of the lessons I've learned/or increased in:

🔸An increase of a greater passion for Jesus!
🔸He has made me more adamant about what I believe.
🔸More determined to follow Him no matter what loved ones may present.
🔸 A greater need for Jesus than ever before.
🔸He means my good when hard things come.
🔸He can be found right where I am...on my knees and it doesn't behoove Him.

Yes, it is a good thing to be reminded of God's mercy and grace. Even as I've read the psalms, often David is found expressing his thoughts of God being afar or that he's being silent and forsaken him. But he always ended with reminding himself of who he knew God to be. It's important that we speak to our soul. Remind it again...

Be reminded again of a God so great that grace is never out of reach. Christ never condemned the adulterous woman, but rather uttered, "...Go and sin no more." So He gives grace to you and every imperfect Believer. And the trials of life are to form us more into His image. My prayer is that as we pilgrimage through life our eyes be open to see the grander scheme of life God has in store...eternity. May you be found faithful in Him.