The Heart of Her Husband

(This post is geared more towards the ladies, FYI).

What do you think about dreams? Does God use them to speak to us today? How critical is it to understanding what it's purpose is? Should one do anything to 'help' the dream have some  value/worth to bring it to pass?


The two of them were in a vehicle, going where though was unclear. As discussion continued, concern could be seen on the face of one while the other was one of peace and tranquility.

"You're not going to lose me." Meaning, 'I'm too crazy about you. I love you more than you know.'

She started to gather a few valuable belongings to hold as hostage...as if this would prevent the unbearable separation? Or was it pure jealousy? 

"You've always given me to the Lord the other times you were fearful." -'Why are you battling with this so much this time?'

"If you take ___ how am I going to visit you?" 'It means you can't go and therefore there is no need for you to come visit.' she thought to herself.  The turmoil and pain was far beyond her little heart could bear. 'Why?!' she cried aloud on the inside.

Sometime later she found herself amongst a number of ladies in the midst of a Bible study when the question was posed her:

"Could you share with us your testimony of what it means to wholly give our hearts to the Lord?"

That was it. Bursting into tears, she ran out of the room. 'ME give a testimony? How could I when I am standing here in the midst of this agony?' 'No, I have nothing to share.' 


This has been hard to post as it is one of my dreams. I'm not sure the meaning of it or what the Lord is trying to teach me through it. ...Besides the obvious: 'Have you really given Me your desire for marriage? And your lack of trust in Someone I may one day bring into your life?' It is much more personal and near my heart because I see myself battling with this to some extent. Have I? Have I really come to that place that, should the Lord be pleased to bring my Knight in Shining Armour that He'll give me the grace to trust him?

I say grace to trust him... For me it is easier to trust God with my heart. I know He has the last word. His will is always best no matter what the circumstance. He doesn't make mistakes. He keeps his promises. He is constantly with me and I may speak to Him and pour out my heart whenever I want to. He is perfect. He loves me unconditionally. Man will fail but my Jesus never fails.

God, what are you saying? Is there an analogy here? Literal perhaps? But I thought sure it was not to be? God, I don't like this state of confusion. I want to fully rest in You without a shadow of a doubt for tomorrow.

"The heart of her husband safely trusts in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil." (KJV)

"Her husband trusts her without reserve, and never has reason to regret it." (MSG)

" The heart of her husband trusts in her confidently and relies on and believes in her securely, so that he has no lack of [honest] gain or need of [dishonest] spoil." (AMP)

"The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain." (ESV)

Wow. Can this be said of my heart? Lord Jesus, I feel like I fall so short of this calling. I want to be a woman in whom the man You choose can fully trust without reserve..without fear of spoil...who has no regrets or cause for questioning of my heart. Ah Lord, make ME such a woman. One in whom my husband may trust because I am fully Yours and because I am totally Yours, there is nothing to fear. Make me worthy of this calling that Your name may be glorified. Lord Jesus, I want to be worthy of the man who one day asks for my hand. To answer that call with a skip of a heartbeat and not with shame.

Jesus, first let me trust You with my whole heart. You have promised that I wouldn't lose Your heart-For my thoughts are not your thoughts neither are your ways my ways. You have promised much. I am Your Beloved...that is so humbling a thought. You have chosen little me, and appointed me for a good work-Your work. Make me a woman after Your own heart. Single focused. Let me run this race so focused on You; as an arrow aligned to hit its intended target. My heart=Your throne. Let me utter as Job, The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord. Let me be a keeper of Your words. A keeper of Your truths to proclaim to the peoples. Let my life ring true to the lessons You have for me that many may see and believe.